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i’m tearing up already cause i’m thinking about how .. much i’m going to miss people .. how much the training is going to “own” me (thanks jon tien for the idea), and how i’m not going to have the sisters in berkeley to go through it with (and thus i will get ‘owned’ all by my lonesome unless i make some companions quick and well you know, you can’t really speed companion-ize, i don’t think) :( i already complained to certain people about how they won’t be there.. what am i going to do??? i hate how people who have been through it already are like don’t worry, blahblah, blah.. blah. :( it makes me feel even more like a * young grasshopper * so to speak. and grasshoppers do not like being called grasshoppers, even in implication! T___T i miss berkeley…………. really.. really. ugh. it’s not like things were perfect there.. i mean they weren’t.. but.. >___< i just hate change, i hate leaving .. and i’m really going to miss everyone.
Tomorrow: Disneyland
so.. i know God is faithful on His end, but why is it that some people finish their course and some don’t?
on that note, i still think i’m a rather hopeless case. eheh.
How do I sum up the past three days?
Me in my own thoughts, my brother yapping away in my ear sounding like one of those nature documentaries (no joke, absolutely noooot exaggerating), my brother talking to strangers, my parents being, well, my parents, walking a bit ahead of us, shows, more shows, sock tans, park food, animals, lots of animals, PENGUINS (ehehe), MEERKATS <3, really sore feet and legs, possibly burned scalp, awkward hats, sitting in the audience hoping not to be called out, pop references that weren’t understood, missing people, thinking about how much I don’t particularly enjoy family trips, times of the month, and wondering whether or not I am forever doomed to being a very not fun person to be with when it comes to family and traveling.
Hmm I don’t really want to end on that note haha.
Zoo = lotsss of animals :O .. the hippo was a lot cooler than i thought it would be.. ummm..
… ummmm.
you know those people who dress up in stuffed animal suits and take pictures with people? they creep me out.
yeah ok i really don’t like this post.. i’m looking forward to making a new home in the training but part of me worries i won’t be able to!! what with such a rigid schedule and all…….
This is like one of my favorite dialogues in it (at least between Diana and Anne):
“Everything is changing — or going to change,” said Diana sadly. “I have a feeling that things will never be the same again, Anne.”
“We have come to a parting of the ways, I suppose,” said Anne thoughtfully. “We had to come to it. Do you think, Diana, that being grown-up is really as nice as we used to imagine it would be when we were children?”
O’s wedding is mañana! It’s supar, yeah, supar, lateeeeee. shouldn’t fall asleep tomorrow!
Today was super long and surreal because we got into an accident (Amtrak, that is) .. ran right into a semi-truck.. all of a sudden there was a bang/jolt, and the train slows down considerably and we pass huge amounts of dust and the broken open truck carrying tar paper .. or rather, no longer carrying tar paper. Me and the new one (yes, i ran into a new one from my home locality who my parents promptly introduced me to at the train station, how weird is that) sitting next to me were like O__O ??? .. apparently some people in the front of the train got injured, the truck driver was fine, and me and the exchange student (i guess that’s what i’ll call her cause i can’t pronounce or spell her Korean name nor would i care to for blogging purposes) were sitting in the rear most car so we were all fine.. and then after that we were basically on the train for another hour or so, without any power and thus AC, waiting for buses to come get us. Everybody was on their cellphones calling people to tell them what had happened.. heh. The scene after we stepped off the train was pretty interesting.. ambulances, police cars, a few reporters, and stretchers with people on them and people talking to them. We marched on through, down the slippery rocks, and into our buses. And then we finally got to Bakersfield, and sat some more. All in all, I reached my final destination slightly hungry, very much in need of a bathroom, and three hours late, but that’s about it :P haha. the end!
Oh and I hate trying to make small talk!! Sometimes I’m like, what do I say next? And my mind completely draws a blank. Like this. Blaaaaaank. So then I proceed to stare out the window or pull out my phone and look at what time it is / text people. UGH.
Ok it’s super late >< gnite.
conversations in english. reliable internet. my bed. yay.
joyce is happily back in her comfort zone ^^.
(it was so weird not having to think about how to order food for the first time in two weeks.)
now to get on that infinitesimally long to do list…
LOL about the ordering food.
I’m taking a break at the library from packing for training/next week .. yeah I’m slow at this packing business. It seems like the more time I spend on it, the messier my room looks. My parents come in and they’re like, it looks the same. Yeah well that’s kind of cause it is, except the piles have moved and have different contents in them! Which is very important, but not at all visible to my parents.
I’m nervous about going to socal and meeting a whole messload of new people and new ways of living… this whole week I’ve kind of been like, I want to just not go anymore, quit, forget that I already turned everything in (almost?), have a bubble of TB test on my right arm that needs to get checked tomorrow, told everybody… Honestly when I think about it in terms of 2 whole years, that just… hurts my head. I can’t think that far. So I’ll think of it term by term, even though in reality, it reaalllyyy don’t make that much of a difference. Anyway so yesterday, after being a complete brat to my parents for the whole week (because they’re the only people in the world who will put up with a 21 year old acting like a 4 year old) I was like, MOM I don’t want to go anymore. And she’s like, why? cause you saw all the regulations and got scared? haha. -_- how come you were so clear about it before and now you’re not? I don’t know…… So anyway, I was reading Luke and I came across the verses…
Luke 18:
29 And He said to them, Truly I say to you that there is no one who has left house or wife or abrothers or parents or children 1for the sake of thebkingdom of God,
30 Who shall not by all means receive back many times as much in 1this time, and in the acoming age, beternal life.
!! Thank you God, and enough said.
